I DIDN'T VOTE!!!!

SO OMG!

It's like a curse word among African Americans, but it's true!  

I DID NOT VOTE!

Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled that Obama's president.  Not only because he's black and it's just a way of sticking it to people who think blacks cannot achieve anything, but also because Romney scares me more than Pee Wee Herman standing in line to see the same movie as I.

At some point, I'm going to die, and at some point I believe I'm going to have to answer to my maker for the decisions I have made.  

My state is a blue state and it was going to go for Obama either way, all the political pundits knew this, so I figured this as well into my decision.  My vote was just going to be one drop in the bucket of millions upon millions who were contributing for the few electoral votes our state is allowed.  CT has my mental and spiritual support, but physical... not so much.

What decisions are we making here though?  Although I believe the road we have taken is already too far gone to make any real changes, I do not agree with the Elephant Donkey circus politics soap opera that we are playing on television.  What is happening is nothing more than a modern soap opera for those jaded by the bold and the beautiful type acting, if you can even call it that.

I know, I know, I'm starting to sound like a conspirator here.... but maybe I am.  I do not think that Obama is maliciously doing ANYTHING to our country.  But do I believe there is a thick web of deceit and complicated coverups that go back before my birth.  Yes.  I think it is going to take serious long looks into our history, our policies, our procedures, our media, etc. for the U.S. to turn itself around and get on the right track. IDK, this article is a tiny shot in the dark of the abyss that is the U.S. Gov't, but I guess I wanted to finally stand up for a little of what I believe in.

I didn't vote because I do believe it is my responsibility to vote, but I am also going to be held accountable for the vote I place to my children and to my God.  I didn't vote because although I'm tickled by his presidency I do not co-sign with every one of his decisions, like for instance the decision to sign into law the act stating the american gov't has the right to indefinitely imprison any person in the U.S. without reason.  No.  I don't agree with that.  At the time I didn't agree with the bank bailout.  I've since changed my mind, but when it happened I was upset.  I don't want to have to answer to God for the decisions of this man.

Don't, however, take this as my consent to right-wing-ism.  I am NOT REPUBLICAN.  I do like some of their beliefs but the fact that racists feel comfortable sitting in their party is something that is impossible for me to support, and I'd also like them to answer for. Obama may not be someone I co-sign for but Romney is the anti-christ's cousin.  I probably would have searched for other countries that would accept me as a citizen if Romney won. Obama may not be perfect but make no mistake, Romney is a nose dive to the 6th level of hell.

ALSO (vent coming) Christian evangelicals in the media should be accosted for the manner in which they handled this election.  They lost all bearing and appeared disgustingly racist this election.  Allowing non christians to confuse God with hate.  The stupidity that appeared is sad and embarrassing, I'm sure angels around the world hid their faces.  Many christians lost their edge with Mitt.  That man is no christian, so how do you support him saying he has your beliefs?  HE'S A PAGAN!  And a pagan is a pagan!  If you didn't want Obama in office because he's "MUSLIM," and therefore non-christian, how in THE WORLD DO YOU SUPPORT ANOTHER NON-CHRISTIAN IN HIS PLACE?!  I'm disgusted.  Have a backbone and be consistent.  When Mr. Graham changed Mormonism in his web site from cult to non cult just for this election I think that solidified the doubt I have for his leadership qualities in my mind, not to mention his past.  ARRRRGGGGHHHHHH HYPOCRITES!!!!!!! #idigress

I have thought out my position.  I support the cause, I love being black, but I question where we are going as a country, even with a black man as the leader.  I don't blame blacks for voting for Obama because he is black, I rooted for OJ Simpson too!  I do not feel accepted by the republican party but I don't fully support democratic beliefs.  I do not automatically see gayness on par with being black.  I'm pro choice but to a point.  Maybe I'm more independent.  Either way the next time I vote it will be because I totally believe and support 100% the political stance.  I'm sorry. (P.S. I also secretly hoped for Ron Paul - ooooooo!!! There!  I said it!!!!)

Please don't hate me.

x husband

My first xhusband is sneekily trying to get back with me.

I'm so shocked he didn't think I would figure it out! I told him the day that I left that if he let me leave, I would never come back.

So now year later he plots with a friend to trick me into meeting up with him and hanging out?

Why are men so fickle? Don't they understand divorce is not a game. It's serious. Once you make that decision to leave a woman you'd better be sure that the decision is a good one because once it's over it's over.

My life is not your game!

Anywho, I'm extremely forgetful lately. I hope it'll stop. It's starting to affect my daily life...

Musings for the day...

Are republicans serious?

Why do people cut you off when driving? They only end up immediately in front of you.

Why do I have to shave my legs?

Rachael Maddow is the queen of OWNING people.

Why can't we get medical procedures done in mexico? Do you think Mexicans tell their citizens not to go to america because we're poor and our medical procedures are sub par? But sometimes they are.

I propose we re-open the underground railroad. I just don't know where it will lead to because ALL of america seems to be hostile to us lately. Maybe we can run for our freedom to cancun. Why didn't the slaves run to mexico instead of north...

Going to NYC with a stroller and an infant is the third level of hell.

Babies make such cute noises.

Men who fail to be men cannot raise men.

HGTV can be really interesting.

If we're all ugly without makeup then what is the true standard of beauty?

Why are evangelicals so concerned with making God look crazy?

Even if you spend $1,000 on an item once it's old, it's just old.

A lady on Bravo TV said that women start to wear flip flops and no makeup because they no longer care. Why didn't I get this memo?

LA looks so much better on TV.

THE NEW STYLE! BANGS!

SOOOO! I decided to go with a new style AND a new color. I was reading up on sisterlocks and discovered that they flat iron their locks, so i decided to do the same for mine, and color it red! So here it is!!!!! My red color and flat ironed bangs. I love my new style now and think I will keep it for a few years. It's beautiful but it also has meaning to me now. I think it gives breath to my old hairstyle because it was getting stale. So this summer will be my 4 yr anniversary? Something like that. I will check to be sure.

Now, I feel like I'm getting to the point where I'm

happy with my locs. I am feeling satisfied with the length and the shape and the hang of them. Even the smell of them. When I first started with the locs I was obsessed with them; picking, preening, grooming, rolling, curling, cutting.... Every single day. I was constantly check them, comparing them with others the thickness and the length esp the length. I blogged as a way of dealing with the obsession and helping others.

Now I don't feel the need to do that anymore. But I guess I will continue... I can't wait until it's bra strap length, no it's still not there yet. I see now that it takes YEARS to get there.

I haven't at all talked about the abuse or anything thing else that I have gone through on here but let me say that when that guy cut my dreads it hurt everyday to see that. It also reminded me every day of what a man can do to you. So now I am not really needing a boyfriend anymore. Not that I ever did, but I really wanted one, and now I no longer do. A bf would be cool, but not to have one is just a cool because now I know they can really do a lot of damage and wreak havoc on your life! #Notworthit

So a new problem that I have discovered in my

dreadlock travels is that they are really hard to dye! I cannot get the color right. I wanted to bring the red closer to my head and it did NOT work. I ended up almost getting a total bleach blonde on the Left side of my head and it barely turned a color at all on the right side. You can't tell because I purchased a black rinse and put it on my roots so it wouldn't look weird. It takes a lot of dye to make my hair red, and sometimes it doesn't stick. I like the color but I would definitely like it to be more consistent, and maybe even a little more red. Either way, I like my new color and plan on sticking with it for at least a year. However I have no tips except have a professional do it. And if you don't keep a bottle of your natural hair color as a rinse just incase you end up with marylin monroe blonde. A bottle of black or dark brown and no one's the wiser. Good luck in your hair travels!